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Saturday, July 5th, 2008
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4:19 pm - office ghosts
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so i'm in the office for the first time in.... well, since last week saturday, but i wasn't here very long then, and i wasn't playing mp3s either. i came in since the a/c is fixed, and i didn't take pix of the stupid new guestbooks/flower girl baskets like i said i was gonna in some entry last week... instead i went to pick up some foam flowers and dropped it off at the warehouse and by the time i came home it was time to go out again... dinner or something. it's been busy.
anyway, we're moving office/warehouse very soon, and i really need to get rid of a lot of stuff. the office jon and i share is a total mess... his side because he doesn't really come in and paperwork is piling up on his desk, and my side because... well, sort of the same thing. i don't go into the office very often either.
playing the mp3s today made it obvious why. everything is so different now with all of us -- me, scott and jon -- and being here just reminds me of that. i have this sequence of billy joel songs i used to play and 'this is time to remember' is one of my favorites. i remember very well playing it often and looking at jon across the table, saying, 'this is like what we're living right now. these are the times to remember, 'cause they won't last forever.' and he'd smile and agree, but now i wonder if he really believed that. i didn't think the whirlwindyness of it all would last, but i really didn't think our friendship would crash and burn so violently. and, well... i blame him.
still, it's nice to be in the office again. i feel somewhat productive and the a/c is nice. moving is going to suck ass though. i'm sad to be moving since we'll be moving to waipahu and this airport location was super convenient, but ... 'they're tearing it down now, and it's just as well.' not that they're tearing this place down (more like the rent is skyrocketing, according to the fulfillment peeps from whom we sublease). but... you know what i mean. we lived through a lifetime, and the aftermath.
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thursday/friday was fun. thursday night we saw hancock, which was.... odd. it reminded me of cable guy. afterwards kyle guys had feng shui at the hyatt, so we all went and yay, kyle let me in, though he lectured me for not emailing him to be put on the guestlist. except i didn't know i was going there until i actually showed up. anyway. d and s ended up going to pearl after, but i wasn't really up for that. actually, leigh ann bailed on me. but then i bailed on d and s. happily, scot, sean and oku were there with a bunch of other peeps including ryan yanagihara, who i haven't seen in like a year, so i hung out with them. oh and nick finally arrived and i hung out for a bit with him. it could've easily been another night of too much alcohol, but i'm perfecting my moves, heehee. plus there's no way in hell i was gonna leave my car at the hyatt.
friday was nice and mellow... i actually slept most of the day, yay me. then it was off to ryan's for dinner with the worldpoint peeps. classic jonah flaked on us, but it was so nice to see brent again. nick showed up in wet surf shorts (late). sigh. some things never change. anyway, we walked across the street to watch the fireworks. we talked story on the wall for a bit and then nick wanted to go to first friday, but it was kinda late. so brent and i went to the little oven (again!) since they were having ono ono shakes and kc waffle dogs. i was too full for the waffle dog but i had a shake. then we drove downtown but by this time there was no one ... so we just went to duke's, which made me happy. i've been wanting to go to duke's for months. as a bonus, john cruz was playing. brent's like a supernerd... he just got another master's ... i forget in what, but he went to harvard and stanford and does all kinds of math on wall street and they pay him a lot of money. quants or something like that. and nick is on the other side of the world in hong kong, so he's got a completely different perspective. nick is from sweden and brent is from iowa, and they both worked with me at worldpoint and left hawaii maybe three years ago because of the need to evolve. sitting there with them listening to them talk made me realize that it's time for some traveling again. maybe new york. maybe hong kong. i kinda want to go somewhere i've never been before, but ... not if i'm going by myself. if i go to new york i can stay with ditweed, and if i go to hong kong i can stay with nick. hm. well, something to think about.
anyway, nick told us crazy rich stories that kinda shocked and saddened me. and brent told us crazy ensemble stories that shocked me too. i've gone through drama lately but wow, that was major, major drama. like... i'm still kinda in shock.
watching the fireworks was nice though. it was a collection of moments where i couldn't help but smile and feel good about life. like... life has been good to me. i got no complaints. i have a lot of great friends, and i'm making new ones and getting to know old ones better.
life has certainly not gone according to plan the past year or so, but looking back now i can appreciate that it wasn't a very good plan. so... to be derailed was probably a blessing in a big disguise.
....
alrighty.
i need to go get a wedding gift now.
and i still need an alternate escape plan for tonight.
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| Friday, July 4th, 2008
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6:21 pm - happy 4th!
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| Thursday, July 3rd, 2008
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6:31 pm - really quick
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so i'm so NOT complaining because of course i'm grateful for all the abundance and everything (amen), but i am just saying... i'm kinda tired of all the dating and thinking about the dating right now. i actually really just want to stay home and watch tv curled up in a ball. with the ac on.
except i'm late right now, so i'm off like a prom dress!
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1:56 am - hooray!
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so i finally saw a monk seal today. yay!! 'see a wild monk seal' had been on the funlist for years, but it never happened so i stopped putting it on there. and what do you know, poof, it happened. it was so random, too... sean and scot went surfing last week and saw it, and i was like, OH! i wanna see a monk seal! and sean was like, 'you seen one you seen 'em all' and i was like, 'uh, maybe if you've SEEN it, which i haven't!' and that was the end of that conversation. well, actually, he told me i could see it if i walked down by diamond head, and i had no idea what he was talking about, so actually, THAT was the end of that conversation.
anyway, i was driving into town today and he called, and made some comment about how he'd woken up half an hour ago and since it was lunchtime it occurred to me that he hadn't gone to work. so i made him keep me company... i picked up a mini beef stew at hk's (pretty good!) and went to the beach by the aquarium and found a table. since sean already ate and was just coming to keep me company, i started eating and when he got there i was done already. so he was like, ok, let's go look for the monk seal. i had no idea you could walk down from the lookout. that's kinda sad, actually. all these years. well, not like i spent a lot of time at diamond head.
anyway, i was so excited. it was really cute! a girl sunbathing nearby said there was another one, a bigger one, that sometimes suns itself on the rocks.
that totally made my day. i'm gonna put it on my funlist so i can cross it off. :)
then we went to get shave ice at waiola. i got the usual since there was no exotic milk tea option. ;)
anyway, then it was time to meet titus and we got some writing done. we walked to subway for a light bite and watched andrew's animated short. i'm SO impressed with how far andrew's come in such a short time! good for him.
after writing we went to the little oven, a place i've been wanting to check out for eons. amanda's friend joyce owns/runs it and i finally met her when we went to watch sex in the city. i had the egg cream (i'd been totally wanting to try one in new york but never did for some reason... i think i was too cold) and titus had the sampler... it came with mini versions of coffee cake, mango cake, haupia sundae, and some chocolate cake thing. sooo yummy. totally going to go back there.
then i had to leave and met up with bryce, rick and barry for incredible hulk at ward. i liked it. i was entertained.
anyway, i'm tired.
nighty night people!
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| Tuesday, July 1st, 2008
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11:33 pm - tiiiired
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went to sunrise tonight with ryan 'cause he wanted to get drunk and i wanted to eat okinawan food. unfortunately they sold out of the hamachi kama AND the karei by the time we got there, but at least i got some miso butterfish and yakisoba. ryan got pretty toasted, so, mission accomplished.
lori had some stuff to do in haleiwa today, so she toted me along with her and i hung out at three tables for a couple hours. that was perfect... just what i needed. i filled out the app for the maui wedding association too.
ok, i guess this isn't a very interesting entry. i need sleep in a bad way.
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5:12 am - so i jacked up my bodyclock
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hokay. so i went to dinner at izakaya nonbei and then needed a walk to burn off the alcohol. not a lot of alcohol, but a little. we ended up at the beach and jumped in the water, which felt awesome since it was such a muggy night. the lights in waikiki are so pretty when they're reflected on the water. it's like a postcard. this is why i live in hawaii.
anyway, i can't sleep.
i'm gonna have to try harder.
ok, bye.
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| Monday, June 30th, 2008
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12:49 pm - whew
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so let's back up a little bit.
i couldn't definitely drive (ie i felt okay but probably would have failed a breathalizer) when the bar closed on thursday night so i hung out at scot's place until 430. so i got home at 5, crashed out until 830, and woke up because... i think my mom called me. anyway, i couldn't go back to sleep, but i went to lunch with chris at menchanko tei because i REALLY needed ramen. i had a good time catching up with her. haven't seen her since her wedding in march, and that didn't really count because who do you really talk to at your wedding, and then i bailed when they went to karaoke because i didn't feel like having to deal with jon trying to talk to me or ignoring jon.
i got home and took a nap and woke up in time to meet the fam at sizzler for the salad bar. then it was off to linda's bachelorette party at nashville. it was a fun time... i haven't seen her since right after her surgery last year in september, octoberish. there was this submarine guy there that grew up on the street her uncle lives on in seattle, and now he lives next door to my childhood friend's parents in mililani. crazy. it was penis everything... penis glowsticks, mini chocolate penis cakes, penis straw thingees (those were the best!). for a bachelorette party it was quite tame since we didn't have any strippers, but i had a lot of fun. actually, before i got there i discovered kuhio collection, a little boutique that opened up a few months ago, across the street and i LOVE their stuff! it's so cute! i bought two tops and two dresses. wish i had time to stay longer but i was already late getting to the bar. i'm definitely going back.
anyway, i went home early ... around 1130 (with a roundtable pizza -- yum!) 'cause i was still hanging from the late thursday/alcohol. plus i had to get up early the next day.
saturday.... woke up around 7 for the a company meeting. felt bad i couldn't stay to do yardwork, PLUS i left the checkbook at home so i was kinda useless as the treasurer except to give them the balance. but i did get to make breakfast, which i thought was nice in the beginning but now absolutely love. i've always thought of breakfast as a super comforting thing... either going out to breakfast or making breakfast with a boyfriend has always been one of the things i like best about relationships. it's just so cozy or romantic or something. maybe 'cause it's something i don't do for myself since i'm not usually hungry in the morning anyway. if anything i might eat cereal or a banana. but anyway, yeah. i really look forward to making breakfast at the clubhouse on meeting days. :)
so after the meeting i had my screenwriting class... got out at noonish, went to the office (gasp!) and then the swap meet to pick up some stuff... back to the warehouse to drop it off, and then got home around 3. futzed around at home watching tv or otherwise wasted time until going to my parents' for steak to celebrate the kitchen renovation. stayed there till about 8 or so and then called scot to see what the plan was...
the plan was to meet at pearl to get stamped, then go on the bar/club crawl. it was a big group .... 16 people. when we got to the yardhouse it was already packed so we found a little corner and that's when the alcohol began... somehow the girls' drinks got double-ordered. i was good for the night except we walked to rumfire and that's where drinks just started appearing again. like, people don't even ask if i want something, they just get it and hand it to me. unbeatable service though. :) except sometimes i'm like... 'crap... i can't drink this, i'm drunk already.' at tsunami the other night it was just too much... i had to drink half of some drinks and then hide it. i got sort of kidnapped at rumfire and didn't see the friends i came in with for a while so i texted scot after a while and he said they were outside. so i hung out there for a bit, but then shots started showing up and i got talked into sharing one, so i made a departure again when sheldon (part of the kidnappers) showed up at the patio bar to buy drinks but more importantly water.
then it was back to pearl. one more drink. i don't know how those guys drink so much.
anyway, long story short... i disappeared again and gradually people went home and by the time i went looking for them my other friend (and neighbor) said they had left and they were looking for me. i texted scot, 'hey, you ditched me! rat bastard.... lol' since if i were them and someone kept disappearing i might leave them behind too. especially if i was drunk and i lived across the street and wanted to go home. anyway, i was in no state to drive but i wanted to get the heck out of dodge, so i walked to my car. and i was thinking dammit, i'm going to sleep in my car, how ghetto is that, but what else was i gonna do. then scot called me and was like, 'where are you?' and i was all 'in my car in the parking lot!' and he was like, 'can you drive?' and i was like, 'NO.' and he laughed and said he would come and get me. yay! so i was rescued and passed out at his place.
i woke up around 830 and had to go home since my mom wanted to go furniture shopping. so i went home and showered and got ready and she picked me up and we went all over the creation. i was totally hanging. we went to scan design but it was closed, so i was like, yay, they're closed, i can sleep! but she was like oh, i can go to fisher since we're in town... and i was like aagh! so we went to fisher and then she wanted to find lighting fixtures so we went to pacific lighting and the salesguy was also hungover so he was like, 'i feel ya.' we had a late lunch at kabuki around 2... i had salmon chazuke. actually we both did.
then i went home but ryan wanted to go hiking (actually he wanted to go shooting but i was like... hell no, i'm not smiling... i am DYING). so he picked me up and we went to aiea loop trail. i was so tired at this point i didn't think i would make it very far, but the more we hiked the more energy i seemed to get, so we did the whole thing. the stream was all dried up and i didn't even see the sheet metal (crashed wwii plane -- which i always thought was a zero but it was one of ours). i didn't realize we were so high above the h3. but anyway, yay exercise!
i got home and was super tired but OMG, i was struck by the cleaning bug AT LAST. hurrah!! so i cleaned last night and furminatored socks and vacuumed and did dishes and laundry and reclaimed my hallway from all my boxes of paperwork (i shoved them into the computer room).
but anyway, that was my week of alcohol and drunkenness. it was super fun, but there's no way i'm drinking with them all the time or my body is going to fall apart. going to sleep after 5 am for three days in a week is just too much. it's like a film festival. omg... that's what it was like. a film festival. late drunken nights.
still... it was fun. :) sometimes i feel like i'm a little too responsible and definitely did not feel that way last week.
i don't really have much to do today that i'm aware of. i got up around 10 (i REALLY needed that!). i haven't left the bed yet except to get ready to leave the house.
actually, what i should do is take product pix so i can get some crap out of my house and into the warehouse.
yes, i will do that now. bye!
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1:08 am - wow this bed feels good
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so i haven't really gotten a whole lot of sleep this week. what i did get a lot of is alcohol. i think i've had more to drink in the past week than i have in the past two years.
last night was supposed to be mellow (for me). as it turns out, it wasn't really. it was m's bday so we went club hopping.... pearl, then yardhouse, then rumfire, then back to pearl. at rumfire i bumped into my mom's financial advisor and he introduced me to the promoters since he used to be a promoter. kyle was also there and was drunk on his ass (versus being drunk off his ass like most times i see him, ha). he said nick was in town so i called him and he was at w and had no idea what i was saying. but advisor guy was pretty darn amusing. he kept saying, 'isn't she beautiful?' to his friend sheldon. for a good ego boost, call ...
anyway, we ended up at pearl and nick was there so i had fun talking to him a bit. financial advisor guy and sheldon also showed up and i got kidnapped from scot guys again.
actually, i shall finish this later because i'm really tired. i'd like to pass out now. night!
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| Friday, June 27th, 2008
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5:46 pm - it's raining men
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just thought i'd let you know. all is right again with the world.
but i think it's more the budding friendship that's making me feel this way.
chemistry is important. compatibility is important. neither is enough on its own.
ok, gotta boch!
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5:22 am - um yeah
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so i went out to shokudo with sean, mike and leigh ann, and that was fun. but scot was sending sean and me updates about the plan to go to tsunami because the best dance crew people were going to be there. in the end, everyone went home except me, so i decided to drop by tsunami and have one or two before heading home (not immediately before, just before). the place was packed. scot's friend bought me a drink as a way to break the ice so i waved him over. that was nice/cute.
anyway, i just got home and i am zonked. so much for coming home early after a drink.
ok, bye.
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| Thursday, June 26th, 2008
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11:16 am - dragging
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so the comment that i'm really busy was made twice in the past few days by two different guys. and i was like... really? this is actually mellow as hell and i'm kinda bored. but yet when i look at my schedule, it does seem pretty busy. lots of places to go, people to see. yet it's nothing compared to life in the past five years, and i think one major difference that makes me feel so bored is that although there are places to go, people to see, there's no underlying cause or reason for most of my interactions these days except for the pure sake of companionship and relationship building. and there's nothing wrong with that; in fact, that's life for most people. but again it comes back to purpose, and i keep on saying this, but it's like rehabbing my soul. blah. shikata ganai.
oh. so i didn't get busted last night, yay. actually what was said made a lot of sense. i don't really feel any better or worse. but then that just means it's the same. except it's not. eh. this is just a passing minor irritation. it will iron itself out.
the only thing to do, really, is the obvious: live life and enjoy it. at the core of it all, despite my constant complaints about rehabbing and rebuilding and that sort of thing, i'm pretty satisfied and happy with life. i said it the other night as a kind of reflex, not really thinking about what i was saying, and i haven't said that in so long that it surprised me, but a moment later i realized i was speaking the truth. so, the bitter, mad stage is over. i guess it's been over for a few months now. i mean, cheerful has been back for a while. smiling and poking fun is easy again. still have spells of salty, though they are more infrequent. need to get on that hockey stick.
i am very fortunate and always have been.
and i'm still tired, but fortunate people get tired. and it's time to get going.
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| Wednesday, June 25th, 2008
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11:31 pm - really freaking long ass day
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ok, so i went to the swap meet, dropped everything off, picked up scot (not scott) at harbor court, found parking, ate a natto/ahi bowl at ahi vegetable and watched the people go by (including sam aiona, who waved), and then walked to bishop square to pick up a ring for an order (and bumped into wendy on the way!).
during lunch i got a call from linda, who is getting married again and relocating. omg. so that got me thinking, i better call eric 'cause i haven't seen him in months. so i did and he was by uh and i met him at hanamaru at puck's alley and had some dessert (green tea pannacotta.. sp?). it was nice to see him and catch up... i haven't seen that gang in ages. understandably so since i've been avoiding the capitol...
anyway, after that i went to meet titus and we wrote a bit, had dinner at nordstrom cafe and then wrote a little more. i was hanigng the whole day/night and still am and need some sleep asap.
tomorrow is another busy day and possibly night.
i'm supposed to have some kind of talk tonight but i don't know if i'm coherent these days. the brain is still functioning but barely. i kinda feel like i'm gonna get busted for something... it's a weird feeling and not my favorite.
ok, going to rest my eyes for a bit.
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10:19 am - um yeah
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so i hit the post button by accident...
anyway, i still don't know what to say, so we'll just say that the little japanese place i hadn't heard of before was ok. i was tipsy after dinner so we walked to gaku and proceeded to drink yet more alcohol (not the best move for sobering up) and ate more... even though i was just there on saturday with beau. that mentaiko potato (it is on the menu) is soooo delish. and the grilled boiled (?) pork is fricken awesome.
also, i am not a big fan of sweet potato shochu.
and i really need to get going because i have to be in town at 1130. crap!
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| Monday, June 23rd, 2008
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11:52 pm - retirement
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so my mom retired earlier this year and is finally renovating the house. she completely re-did the kitchen and got her split a/c. i went over today to check it out and everything looks pretty nice. the kitchen looks a lot brighter with the lighter cabinets. but the best thing is she's so happy. she looked like a little kid on christmas morning. like she was going to start cheering.
i was hoping her new, clean, uncluttered kitchen would provide some inspiration for me to start cleaning, but unfortunately when i got home tonight i cleaned the dining table and then talked on the phone for most of the night.
so easily distracted. sigh.
ryan was in my neighborhood for lunch today so we went to rocky's for loco moco. i did absolutely nothing today except recover and sleep. the weekend really wiped me out. well, actually i did work a little in the morning. yay.
while i was picking up flowers for punchbowl yesterday i got some tuberose for my own room. it smells really good.
the pickup list kinda sucks this week. all kinds of things that i don't really want to go and get. bleah.
tomorrow evening i have a jodo shu meeting and then dinner at a little japanese place i've never heard of.
i have to say that all the texts and calls and friends out and about on saturday night really made me feel more normal. i didn't really write about this earlier but options make me feel like the world is right again. for a while now i've been feeling like the world is shrinking instead of expanding (since for me, it was) and i didn't really like that. busy has always been who i am. this week is very busy. liking that.
ok, i will attempt sleep now. 'night!
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| Sunday, June 22nd, 2008
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11:26 pm - fricken exhausted
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but satisfied.
i don't think my brain is working anymore but it was a whirlwindy weekend and those make me feel more normal.
today was the 100th's 66th anniversary banquet. it was sad that three veterans (that i knew) passed away in the past year... mr. akita, shizuya hayashi, and hiromi. but it was a nice banquet and i realized that i've met quite a few new veterans in the past year as well... mostly goro's friends. but then again, goro knows everyone.
after the reunion i finally went to punchbowl to visit graves... new ones and a few older ones... it's kinda confusing up there. i found uncle ko ... the uncle i never really knew. i thought it would be hard to see hiromi there, but instead it was mr. akita who got me. i remember sitting in the office when he was president, and i was telling him how frustrated i was about the movie not really going very well. and he just said to keep going, that's the main thing. and he told me about his days selling jewelry and diamonds in waikiki and then going boogie boarding afterwards. even the last time i saw him at his home a few weeks before he passed away, he said, 'when you get married, let me know. i still have some contacts in the jewelry business.' he and mr. arakaki were always good pals and one of my favorite memories is when the 100th and 442 went to see their c17, everyone gathered at club 100 to board the bus to hickam. and he and mr. arakaki were sitting in the office next to each other and mr. akita was playing with my camcorder. he thought it was neat that it was red and the mini dv tapes were so tiny. and i took a picture of the two of them like that, smiling, looking like little kids, really... they're both kinda tiny and have cherub-like faces so it reminded me of chipmunks plotting some mischief.
over the years i've come to really love these veterans and it's inevitable that they will pass away. i'm trying to not get too attached but it's kind of impossible as they are all so lovable in their own ways. i learn a lot from them.
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after getting home from punchbowl bryce wanted to go to the 50th state fair to watch his student perform again and there was some dance group ... so i went along. the line was insane though, so we left after standing in it for half an hour and not even moving two poles distance. so we bailed and he treated me to dinner at kapiolani coffee shop, though i had the beef stew instead of oxtail soup. oh and i gave him the teal and black rolls of jersey i bought last year for a fundraiser for jon. he can use it for the kapolei kids since their school colors are teal and black. at least now i don't have to look at it in the office anymore.
i haven't seen bryce in a while so i updated him about the goings-on of the past three weeks or so and he was very entertained by the drama. :P and i was doing so well at avoiding drama this year... whatever. he was like, 'i can't keep up with all these names! i'm going to make a spreadsheet.' haha.
oh, and i finally booked the air to maui for me and silton. i'm bringing courtney a photographer for her wedding gift. i can't believe she wasn't going to hire a photographer. for her WEDDING. omg. i'm excited about it! gonna see rylan and noe too. :)
and i guess i'm going to vegas in september with the aiea peeps after all. now i need to figure out where else i'm going.
ok i'm really tired and i don't think my sheets are dry yet. argh.
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3:09 am - edumacation
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phew, what a long day. went to the screenwriting class (which roger dropped, which is kinda loser), dropped off mangos at romy's workplace, went to the swap meet to pick up stuff for orders, dropped it off at the warehouse, went to aunty j's house and picked up some mango cream pie (YUM!) which i had for lunch, and whined to jay about the guy situation on im.
then it was time to meet beau... he wanted to see indiana jones and since i fell asleep when i saw it with kev i was game. we had dinner at gaku again after and then i met up with the aiea peeps at pearl.
and i got to use my gift certificate from ron, finally. drinks were on me! well, some of them.
still debating whether to go to vegas in september with the aiea peeps. it seems like it'll be fun but no one's going to the football game in oregon afterwards. blah. plus i think i'll be in vegas in october for the 100th's mini reunion... this time i know i will have more fun because people won't be asking me about jon or his dui or be saying all kinds of things about it (which i totally agreed with). hmmmm. oh, and i need to book my air to maui for next month. argh. i should really get on the ball.
ok, i gotta get up soon 'cause club 100th's reunion is tomorrow.... today.
darn, i ran out of time to talk about edumacation. anyway, i was explaining to rick what goes through my mind with all this dating stuff. it was kinda fun. hm... i guess this sentence is kinda like a tease because i'm not really telling you anything that i said. sorry.
in other news, i went digging for worms in the manure piles on friday to no avail. but since i brought snacks (and mangos) with me for the owner guy and his wife, he said he'd pick up the worms for me himself when he turns the manure piles and call me. hooray! it was fun digging for the worms though. i think he admired my enthusiasm (i brought a shovel, a bucket, gloves, and a big floppy hat). or just felt sorry for the silly girl digging in his manure. heh.
i had dinner at hiroshi in waikiki with r. nice guy. big earrings.
lots of dinner going on.
a lot of things have changed in a year. this time last year ham was still on the movie project (and being a flake). i hadn't given up on bk the psycho just yet, either. and jon was stressing me out with various behaviors.
despite its inherent challenges (starting over isn't easy, especially if you didn't particularly want to start over), i think the situation now is much healthier. no more overcompensating for someone else's poor choices or worrying about oversensitive feelings or being taken for a ride. i was just kidding myself and wanted to believe people were better than they actually are.
ok, i really have to sleep now. bye!
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| Friday, June 20th, 2008
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1:31 am - so if i'm the prize...
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and really, i'm not a prize, i'm a person, but we already know that. but for the sake of this analogy, let's pretend i am a prize (and i AM!)...
... and there's a dark horse that came out of nowhere.
it was startling, really, and i marveled at how easy it was. earlier tonight i was complaining to lori... horses 1 and 2 (2 being the dark horse) are seemingly great people, but i don't know if i'm interested in them. i'm leaning towards no. however, i don't want to just write them off without giving them a decent chance, because they had the guts to ask me out and i give points for that. (if you're uji or inappropriate, though, all bets are off. horses 1 and 2 are neither uji nor inappropriate.) horse number 3 is the one i kinda liked, but he's showing signs of ADD or something ... he calls and checks in, but hasn't really invited me out a whole lot (*he did ask me out three times in a week, but the first time wasn't a date, it was more like a 'hey we're at --- why don't you come down?' and i didn't go, so that doesn't really count to me and the third time has not been nailed down yet, so it doesn't really count either). granted, i haven't known him that long, but still... if you have the opportunity to be with me (like, be in my presence) and you don't take it, i kinda have to wonder about your level of interest and commitment. wonder and then move on until someone else who shows enough interest and commitment catches my attention.
so, horse number 3 isn't really focused on the race... he's drinking water or nibbling at flowers along the track. i'm thinking he's not a gamer... he just likes the atmosphere and wearing the pretty racing silks (or are silks just for jockeys?). which is really too bad, because we had hope for horse number 3. i guess technically he should be horse number 2, since the dark horse is the one that just entered the picture.
which is not to say he's out of the running altogether, but he's gonna have to make up ground fast to stay in the race.
in the meantime, i'm going to dinner with the horse who did nail it down. both of them, actually. not at the same time.
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so rick emailed tonight that if anyone wanted a beer, he was at chez monique's (which is now just chez?). and i was all grouchy about the silly boys, or rather, just the one silly boy, so i headed down to get me a drink. even though i'm not really supposed to drink alcohol because of the supposed acid reflux. but you know, when you need a drink, you need a drink. i complained about the past couple weeks, including the friend who really needs to just suck it up, and rick chuckled as he tapped my glass with his and said, 'i feel you.' the fact that rick was out with his coworkers was kinda surprising since the aiea peeps don't really go out during the week, but it was perfectly timed.
and of course it rained tonight because i washed my car today.
i also went to club 100 and ala wai today to hang out and ended up drinking a little. i like roy, an l co. vet who also knows ron. ron called while i was at club 100, coincidentally. anyway, i took goro home and on the way made stops at my vendor's and warehouse. which is so funny to me that goro tags along on my pickups. 'chee, i can see all kine place.' i like goro's pidgin. like, i want to videotape it and show my kids what heavy pidgin was and be all nostalgic. oh, and he wanted to stop at marukai to pick up pupus.
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anyway, i gave myself the day off tomorrow. i should go back to the stable and poke around in the manure for the worms.
to go with my little horse race analogy.
ok i'm tired. oyasumi!
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| Tuesday, June 17th, 2008
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9:27 pm - life in my head...
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unfortunately beats life in reality at the moment. i thought recycling for club 100 would be easy and fast and it was hot and disgusting and, as i apologetically told mr. arakaki last week, a job for boys.
then there was shooting sean's .45, which was tres fun, but the cupcake part was weird.
and today there was helping my aunty pick mangoes. it seemed simple enough, but i think i'm getting old, because climbing on her roof with the picker actually freaked me out a little bit. i used to climb on my own roof all the time as a kid, but today i felt pretty mortal.
tonight i had dinner with kev again after watching the nba finals. we went to hata... haven't been there in years. anyway, i think i ate too much.
and i think my friend who likes me is being a big baby. i won't go into details, but it's annoying and a bit pathetic. so that is also disappointing. we weren't dating, dude. get over it.
i don't know if you can go back to sweet after salty. then again, i don't know if i was ever that sweet. probably not.
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| Saturday, June 14th, 2008
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8:57 pm - in the danger zone
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so i had a fabulous day hiking down to the makapuu tidepools with tinker, and i'm home and showered and in bed and am very comfy. except i'm supposed to go out tonight to meet some friends, and right now getting out of bed (even though i'm not under the covers), getting dressed (in going out clothes, which is more overhead than going to a bar clothes), putting on some makeup (sue me... shadow and lip gloss requires effort!), and getting in my car and driving to town (think stifler:) seems like a lot of work!
but i'm supposed to kinda play wingman tonight and that is what i shall do.
i had another pretty awesome day on thursday with the vets... at the clubhouse (it was mr. arakaki and kaname's bdays, so there was a big party) and then at ala wai with goro's gang, but i should dry my hair and get going.
i am reluctantly dragging myself out of bed... now...
bye....
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